WELCOME

2008-11-04T18:37:00.004+08:00

It has been 6 months since i last updated my blog. Didn't even notice that it was so long ago. The last entry was on the 20th may, which was the day i signed my contract with ****.

Times really flies. Without realising, i have been working in the lab for 5 months le. During this 5 months, i really learnt a lot of things. My mentor, is especially nice. Still remember the 1st month when i was here. I had totally forgetten about all the techniques that i had learnt. My mentor, showed me once, den i did once for her to see. She find it ok, den she let me carry on with the rest of it. I really appreciated it. My calculations cannot make it. She explained step by step to me until now i know how to calculate le. Without her, i dun think i can recall everything so fast.

However, all good things will have to come to an end. My big boss is retiring in jan 2009. The lab have to be closed and every one will have to go seperate ways. People have asked me why i joined the lab knowing that it will be closing. All i can say is that i never regretted being here. The people here are so nice. They helped and guided me. We can also chat non-work related stuff. Given a choice, i will not want to leave this lab. But, no choice... Just hope that the next place i go to will be the same or better but not get worse (Cross-finger)... haha...

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my lab mates the very best in their future. Hope they can succeed and get into a good lab... :)

2008-05-20T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today, i went to sign my contract for my job and went for a full body check up. I was shock when i saw my weight... i have gain about 7 kg of weight... I am so angry and upset with myself...

I hated myself for being lazy to exercise but like to eat and eat...

I hated myself for having headache easily.....

I hated myself for being fat....

I hated myself for not having motivation to exercise....

I dun wan to return to last time my size... is so damn ugly...

I wan slim down to at least after my BMT size..

In summary, i can only blame myself for the size i am...

So, i decided to exercise every alt day... i hope i have the motivation to slim down...

JIA YOU!!!

2008-05-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

CHANGES

There are things i hope that i can change and improve on myself:

1. My attitude

2. The degree of sensitivity

3. My temper

4. My willingness to accept comments

5. My listening comprehension

And many many more..

I really hope i can change all these...

2008-04-27T23:47:00.001+08:00

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Tomorrow morning, i will be going for my first official interview le... i felt so nervous. haha... wondering how it will be like. just hope that everything will go smoothly and that i will be able to get the job. hee...

2008-04-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

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After 7 weeks of lesson, today is my exam. I used about 1 hour to complete my 2 hour paper. with 10 marks not sure how to do. den i slowly figure it out and more or less able to solve the question. Just hope that i will be able to score for this module.

This is the 1st module that i took up. For the past 7 weeks, it has been quite hectic for me as i have to juggle between my study and my work load in army. At times felt really tired, but i do have a great sense of satisfaction as i am able to handle it.

The paper over le, but i do not feel happy at all. I felt lost. Maybe cause i am very busy all the while suddenly everything just ended den dunnoe wat to do. Think i must appreciate this cause if i realyl start work after my ord, i dun think i will have the privellge of taking 89 days off to study for exam.. So must appreciate and be grateful that i am able to do it...

Now just hope that my result will be good... hee..

By the way, i will be going for an interview this coming monday. i felt so excited. really hope i am able to get the job.. but, due to still in ns, i dun dare to have too high wishes. just hope that he will hired mi in june... so i got the income for my studies... hee..

THats all for my update...

2008-02-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

Came across this song by olivia ong and we like it a lot....

The lyrics:

SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH

You ask me if I love you
and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all it's strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
and I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

2008-02-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

Some update!!!

FIRST OF ALL, I WANNA WISH EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY CHINES NEW YEAR. MAY GOOD HEALTH AND WEALTH BE WITH YOU ALL ALWAYS!!! HUAT HUAT HUAT AH!!! :)

Tomorrow i going back to camp le... so sian... my 10 days of staying at home going to be over soon le. in about another 8 hours time, i will be back in my camp le... feel that time flies fast... but, the date like very slow leh.. haha... Away from camp for 10 days is super shiok... really relax and enjoy civillian life.. haha..

But come to think of it, ORD = Going to a new phase of life whereby we will start everything from fresh again. As in to find job, make new friends, creating a good working relationship with colleague and boss, and many many things... but, all this is part of growing up... haha...

Realyl looking forward to civillian life, but think will miss my army close friends. We suffer, have fun, play basketball and many many more... All these will be the things i will be taking away with me after ORD. hee... 15 more weeks le... haha... yeah... CAN START ENROLLING INTO CCC (CIVILIAN CONVERSION COURSE) le. HAHA

On saturday, 090208, i just completed my CV... haha.. Sending it out next week ba... must look for job le.. if not no money to support myself and gif my family le... hee.. must plan le wor... haha...

Came across 2 MV songs from youtube. is super funny.. they change the lyric. haha...

Go and see the link if u have time.. hee.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu-FuyXpObk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcH5dTJcaA8

thats all for my update... take lots of care... hee...

15weeks to ORD le.....

2007-11-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

DEPRESSED & STRESSED

Over the past few days, i suddenly have a thought.

"Why am i doing so many things? I get the same pay as the people of the same rank, why they are so slack but i am so busy. I am so stress. Why i ask my men to do things, i am still doing together with them? Am i very stupid?" Suddenly, all these questions came to me.

I guess, i am just tired out. Ever since i take over the appointment, i have not had any good rest. I am in charge of so many things. When something goes wrong, i get the shit. I am sandwiched between my men and my superior. Not only i have to be troubled over the stores but also need to be troubled by the interpersonal relationship of my men.

Am i giving myself too much stress or is it just that the never ending work add on to my stress?

Can anyone help me? can anyone understand my feelings?

i raised my concern or question to my superior, but in the end, nothing is done. and is just full of bullshit reply. Everything is bullshit... is it really that difficult to explain why we need to help "THEM" to move and keep stores???

Why must give the attitude and say that y we asked so much. But, have u ever put yourselves in our shoes? Do you know how hard it is to get people to get things done? You say until very relax, but "saying is free. i also know how to say"

Everything is all crap and bullshit...

Whatever... From now on, i just do my job.... those not my area, i will direct to the respective people... i cannot be bother...

I am just men with higher pay.. What spec, What authority... we are just men... fuck the bull shit....

Anyway, 6 more months to FREEDOM .. After that i can fuck off and carry on smoothly with my life...

2007-09-26T18:58:00.001+08:00

Today, i just finish some course, guess what. When the course ended, someone say, we must "go back" tonight by 11pm. whereby, the initial plan is to "go back" tml morning by 7.30. So everyone was unhappy abt it. It is normal cause most of us have our plan for the evening. suddenly want us to book in, who will be happy?

Guess, what is the reason "they" say,

"You guys are misbehaving, throwing face, the attire you wear are so inappropriate and behaving like a 12 yrs old kids, blah blah blah...."

Come on, we are attending a course outside in cilivian attire and that is how we dress up in cilivian. We ahve our freedom to the way we like to dress. The attire stated is, no slippers, shorts berms, etc. everyone follow. all wear t-shirt, jeans and covered shoes to attend the course. is it the wrong attired?? Do they expect us too wear a coat, with long sleeves shirt and pants to attend a non-formal course? it makes not sense rite? We have our freedom when we are not in "there"

Our age range between 18++ - 22yrs old. Of course we will still tend to be more playful at times rite? If you wan us to behave, you should say so even before the start of the course. If you dun like the way we dress, den you say so when the problem arise. Not keep until the end den scold ppl.

If you wan to have a rules and regulations, do it before the start of the activity and not at the end. It will be pointless and only made people hate you more.

There are a lot of liminations to this blog, shall not elaborate...

Just feel that "they" are FUCK UP.... Never care about the morale of the people. People have different mindset. Guess, it will take forever for them to gain the people respect.

2007-09-26T18:42:00.000+08:00

GOOD AND BAD LEADERS

Yoz guys, i have not been blogging for a long time le. Something "F*** UP" happen today, which "inspired" me to do some blogging.

I would like to talk about good and bad leaders.

As we all know, there are 2 types of leader. Is either you are good or you are bad. No half way... There are also 2 types of respect, I respect you because of your character, attitude and etc. I can also respect u because you are higher ranking or have higher authority than me. The latter is called "FORCE RESPECT".

Lets talk about good leaders. A good leader will lead by example and not just know how to instruct and asked people to do things. He will reason out with the people and will amke huis stand before the things start. AS in, what i want you to achieve and behave even before the start of the activity. He will also put themselves in the mens or lower ranking shoes, and care about their morale and feelings. He will try not to do things that he dun wan other people to do to him. In general, he care about the morale of the people working under him.

Now, about BAD LEADER. He only know how to talk and instruct people to do. He will join them once in a blue moon. He will not have any words of encouragement and just say it is not enough. Will never be satisfied no matter how hard the person do the things. He will never tell you when he want the given tasks. Instead, he will just called you and say, "I want the report or the documents in 1 hour times and etc." He will not put himself in his men or lower ranking shoes. He thinks he is right. He will willingly accept everything the bigger boss ask him to do. Then, he will shoot the arrows to other people to do and is do it asap. He will even throw away the paper you gave him with all the records and expect you to do it over again. He will also anyhow misplace the paper you gave him. THere are many many more things about a BAD LEADER. You can name it.

I do not dare to say what i say is correct. But, what i feel is that, as a leader, it is very important to look at the morale of your men and etc. Cause, if your men is angry or in low morale, how will they want to work for you willingly. They will only work cause you are my boss, you higher ranking, you bigger than me, i dun do i die. etc...

So to all those leaders out there who happen to read this blog, please remember the phrase below:

"Without men, leaders is nothing. Without leaders, men can still be leaders."

2007-08-03T10:41:00.000+08:00

Yo guys,

i came across an email which can tell what personality you are. it is quite true for mi... do try it out if u have time... hee...

LEFT OR RIGHT? First, identify yourself as right or left brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.
Look at your hands. If you see
Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brain

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)
Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left
Considerate, traditional, indirect type

can instinctively read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
Loves challenges type, Straightforward.

Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left Dedicated, cold, perfectionist
Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right Likes to take care of others, leader type
Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

2007-07-22T08:24:00.000+08:00

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I am very happy this week... why?? cause i finally got my promotion le... haha... means got more pay le.. haha...

After being 1 yr of private, i got my 3sgt rank le... hee... it is so funny...

on the 160707, i am still a private when i book in... den on the ro, it says tat i am promoted to cpl together with my other friends... haha... den on the 170707, the ro says tat we are promoted to 3sgt... haha.. so funny and fast rite? within 1 day get promoted le... haha... it is a long awaited process..

After BMT, i never expected i would become a sgt... i only expected the highest to go is cpl. Luckily, i got posted to MRF, which gave mi tyhis chance to get promoted to 3sgt... i am so happy... haha..

BUt, being a 3rdsgt, also means got more responsibilities... so must give and take... haha..

Another thing i very happy also because my computer was repaird... after abt 3-4 months and then the company finally fixed it... i find this not acceptable... but, since my comp ok le... i give it to them... haha...

Hao lar, stope here le... free will come update again... hee...

2007-04-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

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It has been a week since i last blog. been in spec 2 for te 2nd week. it is stressful... this week, i got 2 test, i practical and 1 theory. i got 60.9 and 79 respectively. the passing marks is 60. which means, i ws super lucky to pass my practical by only 0.9. haha... but, i was not happy abt it. maybe cause my group only got 2 person pass out of the 6. think that is the reason ba..

have another theory and practical test coming up in abt 1 -2 weeks time... stressful.. haha..

Tat day (wed), morning, i was so tired so i slept on the bed after 6.30am. den got 2 sgt on duty came and shout at us den he took down our name. we dunnoe wat happen yet... just hope everythign is fine. just hope tat if our sgt wan punish, he punish those who slp and not the whole platoon. pray hard.. haha..

My computer spoil. manage to get it 'repair'. it keep on hanging. now i blogging, dunnoe wat time it will hang again. i really hate IT stuff, it gets spoil easily... haiz... den for mi, an IT idiot, when the thing spoil, i damn sain and stress... if really need find ppl repair, i will need to pay money... i dun wan... haha... hope it will be fine... hee..

Yesterday night (210407), i gf treat mi to eat at a vegetarian restaurant at quality hotel. the food is nice... i ate le till very full... cause we ate buffet... haha... I want to thanks her in this blog for treating mi there eat and understanding... hee... Thanks dear...

Today went driving in the afternoon. just when i change the seat and drive off for a short while only, it rained very heavily. until i could not see the car in front of mi. this is the 1st time i experience. however, i enver drive properly cause felt a bit scare... haha... den, at antoher junction, i encounter a spoilt traffic light. so weird that so many things happen for my driving today... haha... but is an experience for mi. in case my test day all these things happen... hee...

I felt so sian... maybe this blog entry u all will read untilv ery blurr.. but i no time to slot out... haha... sorry for the confusion... haha...

All the best guys...

LAStly, i want to wish my gf all the best and may everythings goes smoothly for her... hee...

2007-04-15T16:41:00.000+08:00

Been through the 1st week of spec course. the pace is really very fast. if never revise, really hard to understand. everyday is a new lecture and a new protocol to practice and learn. really quite stress.

THis coming tuesday have a theory test and wednesday have practical test. the test just come after 1 week of studying... stressful stressful... i will endure through it... haha...

Heard that there will be a $50 pay increase. hope it faster come... short of money... haha... who wan to 'yang' mi? hee...

time flies fast, going back to camp tonight ... miss my pillow at home.. haha... another thing, i got a new pillow at camp... they finally change the pillow.. haha.. yeah...

Driving test coming on the 3rd may... hope i can pass it with 1 try.. haha.. JIA YOU

Yesterday went out with my gf. hee... quite enjoy it... really really... very sad that we have so little time to spend together with each other as i am in army... we normally meet on saturday and go out the whole day... hee... hope my army life faster end den we can have more time for each other....

Hope i change my temper too cause recently temper a bit bad. she msut ahve suffer a lot... sorry my dear... i will control it de... sorry...

hope everything is fine for u... take care... hee....

2007-04-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

Have you ever say the following phrases?

A.
1." I will try my best."
2. "I cannot do it."
3. "It is impossible for me."

Or

B.
1. "I will give my 100%."
2. "I can do it."

Which of the follwing phrases we used more often? A or B

Most of the time, we will say the phrases in A. The phrases in A, if we say more often, we will never succeed in our mission. this is beacuse, when we said those phrases, we already lose half of the battle.

So we must the phrases in B. Only then will we have the confident to complete our task.

So from now on, we must say "I can and will give in 100%." this will made us overcome everything... hee..

2007-04-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Yo, my blog has come alive again... Finally have the mood to write here..

Time flies fast. i already 10month plus into army le.. left 14mths.. ppl might think is still a long way to go but i think it is fast... haha..

Today went out with my gf... so nice on the bus 89, i met my best friend, phil. we had some conversation during the journey to pasir ris. We also update each other on what happen all these while... glad tat both of us are doing fine...

DEn, in the afternoon, we go also met up with our poly friend, wei liang... we tok about a lot of things and also update each other... it is so shiok.. haha.. den we went for a movie, SHOOTER. it is so nice... the plot powerful... must watch.. haha... den he told us a very chim phrase "The things that wun change is change" chim rite? haha.. use ur wisdom to understand it... haha

After sending my gf home, i saw my npcc junior, who are my friends on bus 89 also.. we chat and also update.. haha... so funny and happy...

Life is like tat, when u long time never met up with ur friends, when met up, u will feel very happy... the feeling is very heart warming.. haha..

must cherish the friendship between each other... so tat we wun get to regret when times past... hee..

2006-05-05T15:39:00.000+08:00

Feeling damn sian now... this morning went to book for my driving test.. in the end, the instructor say that he dun have any available slot in it... haiz... den he suggest to mi to go internet see got any ppl cancel the test a not... if got den immediately book the slot... haiz...

hope will be able to take the test in may... cause, if dun have, i will have to extend my course... which means waste more money... haiz.... so sian now.... everything is abt money and time... left with less than 1 month le...

Today also went to the dental to see my tooth... to my suprise, my tooth got 1 big big hole... scary sia... den the dentist cover up the whole for mi and add medicine to it.... he also say that my wisdom tooth is not growing properly.. so might need go for operation... sian...haha...

Just now went to duyu house see her daughter... she is so cute.. haha... think when she grow up more, more fun to play... hee..

Today, also my last day in IMCB... dunnoe should feel happy or sad... haha... mixed feelings... haha... so sian of everything now..

Like all my plan cannot proceed as usual le... haha... so sian lar... haha..

dunnoe wat to blog le... hope i am able to book for my practical test.. praying hardly... haha..

Yesterday, i received my NTU rejection letter le... haiz.. so sad..........

Got to stop here le... haha.. dun wan blog le.... hee....

2006-04-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today evening,

i went to hospital to visit my grandma... glad that she was better and able to talk.. haha... so happy to see that.. hee... stayed there for about 2-3 hrs.. hee..

Den, my family and i went to seng kang there to have our dinner... which is about 8plus..

Really enjoyed the meal cause long time we never have family dinner le... this is due to work,... haha..

the moment really very nice.. had the family feeling.. hee..

If have moment or chances, do cherish it and have meals with your family members... casue we never knew when will be the last meal together.. hee..

"Cherish every moments together... and people around us... hee..."

2006-04-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

WHEN A GUY...

When a GUY is quiet and is alone, He is thinking of you and he misses you.

When a GUY is lying on his bed, He is thinking deeply why he loves you.

When a GUY looks at you in your eyes, He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you are to him.

When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after a while, He is not and feels hurt.

When a GUY keep asking you the same question, He is wondering why you are lying.

When a GUY hugs you while sleeping, He is wishing that you belong to him forever.

When a GUY calls you everyday, He Miss You and wants your attention.

When a GUY wants to see you everyday, He cares for you and he wants to know how are you today.

When a GUY sends message to you everyday, He wants you to know he is fine.

When a GUY says I love you, He really means it.

When a GUY says that he can't ive without you, He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.

When a GUY says "I Miss You", He wants to see you immediately.

2006-04-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

HAiz,

back to work place le... so sian today... haha... wat to do... Need to work...

As each days passes, enlistment date will be nearer and nearer... i will have lesser and lesser time to spend with her le... so sad... :(

MY hair going to be botak le... haha... will it be handsome?? hee...

Just feel like devoting all my times to her... haha... be with her 24/7... hee.... arbo sure no more time le... haha....

As for my work, i wanted to redo my stable cell line.. but, dunnoe y my cells keep on gettinig contaminated... think maybe of my poor techniques ba.... or is it my lab coat?? I so pai seh lor.. been here for about 7 months le.. the project i do still does not have any result... transient transfection seems to be unsuccessful and my stable transfection also.... haiz... really hope that before i leave this lab, i can have a cell line that successfully produce the protein.. this is my aim.. hope for the next 1 month, it can be successful....

So fan... the phone keep on ringing.... feel like engaging all the phones... haha..

Got to stop here and get work done le... haha...

Take care lots..

To MB0301 ppl... Hope can organise another outing... wanna get toigether with u ppl.... do let mi know the dates in advance...haha....

*Phone ringing again... 很烦。。。

2006-04-05T09:09:00.000+08:00

Message for MB0301 ppl:

This morning i received an sms from Mr Saifudin.

There are 2 lab tech position for DNA sequencing at 1st base PTE　ＬＴＤ．　

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Ｃｌｏｓｉｎｇ　ｄａｔｅ　ｏｎ　８　Ａｐｒｉｌ　２００６．

Ｐｌｓ　ｐａｓｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｅｓｓａｇｅ　ａｒｏｕｎｄ．．．　ｔｈａｎｋｓ．．　ｈｅｅ．．．

Ｇｏｏｄ　ｌｕｃｋ　ａｎｄ　Ａｌｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｂｅｓｔ．．．

2006-04-04T09:18:00.000+08:00

Felt very happy and sad at the same time.... guess wat??? She was accepted to work in IMCB.. haha... meaning we can come work and go home together le.. haha... YEAH!!!

The sad part is, i cannot stayed in IMCB any longer le... cause going to get enlisted le.. haiz... can say left only 1 month le... will cherish the time.. hee..

Actually thought of going oversea before enlistment. but now, i decided not to go le... hee.. wills tay in singapore and spend time with her... cause after enlsitment, will have very little time to see her le.. haha.. but, in camp, if possible, i will called her everynite.. hee..

Hope she will be happy in the lab... wondering how her contract is now?? hee...

Got to stop here le... haha.... go do lab work le... YEAH!!!

2006-04-04T09:10:00.000+08:00

59 days left.... haha...

Yesterday went out with my "mummy" and her 2 kids. hee... had a lot of fun even though we just spent about 4 hours together.. we went orchard to show the kids around... hee... they are so cute....

She has 2 kids. 1 name johnathan and the other name stephanine. initially, they are very active. and as we walked from taka to cineleisure, they became hungry... as u all know, kids when hungry will throw their temper.. haha.. den they pull a very long face.. hee.. den my mummy and my cousin and mi, all 3 thinking of where to bring them to eat.. the kids wan eat KFC. den i thought centerpoint has it.. but when we reach centrepoint, there are no KFC.. haha..

Den i thought of going back to taka cause taka there have... the kids are tired le.. so my mummy piggyback her daughter and i piggyback her son.. when we walked till the UOB bank there, the kids say wan eat mac... haha... then the 3 adults all laugh... haha... den we walked back to centrepoint again.. haha... den i say softly, " scarly, later when we reach mac, they wan KFC.. haha" den all the 3 of us broke out into laughter.. haha...

Luckily, when we reach mac, the kids never say wan eat KFC... haha..

After that, WE went back to kovan, there to play bowling... haha.. i very lousy... i got the 3 position. johnathan won mi.. and my big cousin won... haha... played till quite fun but tired also...

They going back to australia this coming saturday... think i will miss them.. cause, the last time my mummy came back was in year 2000.... dunno when will be the next time i going to see them again...

Hope everythings will go smoothly for them... hee...

2006-04-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

Guess wat,

Today april fool... and the government gave me a suprise.. haha.

I received my enlistment letter... enlisted on 2nd june 2006 at 10am... SONG BO!!! haha... serving the nation le.. haha..

"You are hereby required under section 10 of the Enlistment ACT (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 02 JUN 2006 (FRI) AT !).00AM to BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL ! (BMTC SCH 1)"

Think i dun have the chance to work in my lab and get my driving license le... haiz.. my dream........... ahhhhh..... everything seems shattered in front of me... After spending about $2000 dollar and half a year on my driving, i cannot get my license, so near yet so far... haha...

And research.. i thought can work longer to get more experience before going to NS, so that when i ORD, i am able to find a research lab job... think i cannot help out my mentor le... :(

But wat to do, can take it as a free sliming centre for mi.. maybe after i ORD, i became fitter and more handsome... haha... Good training for mi.. haha... Must think positive ma.. NS, every guys will have to go through de so nothing to be sad or worried abt. haha... If go in with a positive mind, everything will be fine right? hee...

Must plan how to spend my remaining 62 days le.. haha... thats all for today... haha...

2005-11-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

03/11/05 (Thur)

Today evening went for my sec sch class gathering.. amazingly abt 20 plus of us turn up... haha... so happy to see everyone cause those sec sch memories came back to our mind... most of us had changed... some change in their character, some in appearance and some in thinking and etc... only mi does not change much.. still the same and as childish as before... dunnoe when i will grow up.. haha..

The most drastic change among all of us should be jack.. he really change a lot.. in both appearance and behaviour... he slim down a lot.... so envious of him... i also wan but i dun have the motivations to train up... i so damn lazy... he also became more tame then before le...

some of us like never met up for about 3 yrs le... hope will have this type of gathering often as all of us will get together and update each other abt our life... today really is very fun... really enjoy a lot... haha...

just realise that as we grow up, we have little time for each other.. if we out in a little effort to meet up, den things will be different.. cause as friends, even if we are far apart we still have each other in our mind.. hee.. hope all the friendship will never end..

Take lots of care my friend...

2005-11-03T08:49:00.000+08:00

Wang Li Hong - Forever love

爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见 Forever 才了解自己
未来这些日子要好好珍惜

爱我有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边像微风神奇
温柔的安抚我的不安定
所以我~要每天研究你的笑容
Ooh 多么自然

Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有
幸福的理由

爱情是场最美最远的旅行沿途雨季泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦巧妙的融化
我的不安定不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
Ooh 多么自然

Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有
幸福的理由

你感动的眼睛我沉默的声音
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我在说一次 I love you oh (直到永远)

Forever Love Forever Love Forever Love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有
幸福的理由

Forever Love Forever Love Forever Love

2005-10-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

23/10/05 (Sunday)

Today went to my friend chalet.. i become the cook man.. hee... bbq food for my friends to eat.. den we play a game called "supreme pig" played for 4 rounds... i only kana once 3rd grade pig.. haha... so funny lor.... hee...

dunnoe wat to blog leh... haha... just coem here to anyhow say things so that ppl wun say i long time never update even though i really long time enver update.. haha..

Got my final year project stuff.. roughly know wat is my project abt.. hee... quite fun as it is in my area of interest.. i wan to thanks my supervisor... hee. ... she ask mi my area of interest den i tell her cell culture... den she need this technique to help in her project so i got it... haha..

now i a bit scare leh.. sometimes i like blur blur de... scare i cannto do a good job.. tml will be the 4th week there le... hope i wun be so blur anymore... i really wish to do a good job.... dun wan disappoint my supervisor... always amke mistake and did badly in my calculation de... haiz... Jowin buck up... hee..

think i update till here le... got to do some singing... hee... bye guys... tkae lots of care... hee...

2005-09-29T08:25:00.000+08:00

Yoz morning everyone... haha... just woke up... den cannot slp le... dunnoe y recently keep on waking up at this time even though tired.. haha..

Yesterday went to malaysia.. it was so fun... a lot of things we do, eat ah.. shop ah.. chat ah and finally got 1 event that made the 6 of us so drain of energy.. that is we went into a magic trick shop, the person show us so many different magic tricks that we all see until cannot take it.. haha.. but it is quite fun to see it... but when we noe how to do it, it is not fun le... haha... but i rate yesterday outing 5/5 .... haha... hope got chance to have this outing again.. hee..

Later having my 1st driving practical... haha... wonder how is it going to be like.. hope things will goes on smoothly.. haha......... looking forward to it.. haha..

Thats my update... bye

2005-09-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

27th September 2005

Today really very very happy.. cause is a special day... haha.. Went out from mornign to evening... felt a bit tired.. but wwat happen today is very sweet... haha.. think of it, i was so happy.. haha... dunno how to describe my feelings.. LOLx..

Just cut my hair today.. hope still as nice as before... haha... Bye...

GOing malaysia tml.. looking forward for it.. haha... take lots of care guys...

2005-09-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

Finally have time to update my blog after relaxing for 3 days... So shiok... felt like the big stone on my back had been put down... so relax sia... haha..

The exam was really stress.... so much things to study... haha... but this is the semester that i was so slack.. haha... maybe cause most of the module is 40% so relax a bit... but now... felt stress that i wun get good result.. haha...

Went sentosa on saturday with Nuriah, Joanna, YC, WL, FAizal, WK, Eby and siti... so fun there... Initially, i dare not take off my cltohes cause scare of my "GOOD" figure to show other ppl... but in the end still strip... cause if i enevr strip, they going to strip mi.. haha... so i WILLINGLY strip myself... haha..

THat day was quite fun.. as usual we also got play the guess the number game... haha.. some secret was reveal... haha.... FUN.... Finally got a sun burn on the back... so Shiok the burn.. when touch can get "high" :P haha...

Coming wednesday, going to malaysia JB... Looking forward to it.. hope it will be a fantastic and fun trip... haha.. Hope everyone who go will enjoy and play until crazy..... haha...

THats it... haha... update till here.. someone disturbing mi now.......... haha......:P:P:P:P

2005-09-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

Finally half of the week gone le... dunnoe should be happy or sad.. happy cause i finish 3 test this week le, left 2 more 2 go.... on top of that, 2 of the module are electives i think can pass and clear the electives.. hee... sad cause coming up in abt 11 and a half hour, is PCT test which is 40%.. so scare of it.. haha... just finish memorising the 13 principles of ICH GCP, brain felt dead le.. haha... still got a long way to go... taking a break by blogging here.. haha... hope i can remember all the 13 principles... haha...

So fast finishing my the yr 3 sem 1 le.. haha... now week 15... 2 more weeks den exam will be over den we will be going for attachment le... haiz... think going to miss all my classmates.. hee...

dunnoe wat to say le... haha... think stop here... BYE!!!

2005-09-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

Finally stem cells paper over......... felt so stress duringt he half an hour before the paper until i cannot stop sweatin... think is the 1st time got 1 paper make mi so stress. stress until i go buy chocolate and sweet to eat... damn scary lor.... haiz... think cause i dun wan fail this module.. the short essay (30m) i can all do... but think i do badly for mcq cause got a few questions my ans is correct one i go change den get the wrong ans.. lesson learn --> trust ur 1st ans in mcq... haha... :P:P i think for today paper, i can pass.. just hope tat overall i can clear this module.. haha.. very scare will fail...

Eby was tramadise at my house... why???? u ask him lor.. haha... funny sia... i today super blur... my cell com notes was just in my bag the whole day but i never realise tat until eby came to my house.. wat a lame things... make him waste money take cab... haha... think because of stem cells i whole person become out of my mind.. haha.... nearly gone crazy.. but over le.. jiu hao... haha..

Now going to start on my cel com and PCT.. haha... hope can finish study... hee... JIA YOU JOWIN.. haha...

2005-09-05T04:00:00.000+08:00

Studying stem cells now.. felt so stress up................ dunnoe wat to do... wan study but cannot get motivted....... cannot focus........ haiz....... how to survive like this.............can someone tell mi wat to do?????????????

now raining heavily... felt like going under the rain to drain myself... hahaha.......................

"JOWIN, dun stress.... study hard... go focus... throw everything off ur mind.... u can do it... u will get A for all ur modules for the coming test......... u can do it...." been telling myself all those.... but......... haiz.............

THink have to outcast myself le........ arh................ going crazy le... haiz............ grumble finish le....... go study le........... haiz......... haiz.. haiz.......

2005-09-04T16:25:00.000+08:00

Finally week 15 approaching le...

thinking of how to survive this coming week...

mon to fri all the way got test.... just hope i can have the motivation to study and score well... wat worries mi most is stem cells, dd and PCT.... hope i can get good result for the coming test...

on top of tat, i also pray for all my classmates and friends who are also struggling during this time... may they have the motivations to clear this semester with flying colour.....

To MB 0301:

"lets do our best and endure thorugh this semester and after that, we will all be free... haha...... JIA YOU EVERYONE!!!!!"

To my 2 best buddies:

"MAy things work out well for u 2... study hard and score well for this semester... after all our paper, we go malaysia ok??? this is wat we said before... must go this time round... take care lots..."

Lastly, notes to the special person:

"thanks for everything... hope u able to clear this coming weeks.... if u got anything on ur mind and u wan to clarify, dun be afraid... just ask mi... i noe tat time i said those things u might not tell mi or ask mi things le... but, dun wry.... just ask ba.... i wan u to be happy... i am really happy when i am with u........ Wat i said is true........MAy things work out well......... JIA YOU too!!!"

2005-08-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

<<>>

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u? Missing someone is a terrible but at the sametime, sweet feeling. U will be sitting aroundwondering if u meant anything to him/her. Thinkingif he/she ever cares about u. Rushing to the phoneonce it rings hoping that it's him/her. Looking outof the window hoping that he/she will surprise uby appearing downstairs. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her missing the finalepisode of your favourite show. Laying on yourbed, thinking of the last time u went out together.Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the starsagain, talking about everything, your dreams,plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping tosee him/her online. When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your sms, u willstart worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feelsgood to miss someone. U know tat u really careand u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring forhim/her.

But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. U feel as if u are being left alone. So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss u. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other partyknow if u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.

2005-08-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

22/08/05 Monday

Today felt so happy... went to take my basic theory test... guess wat??? i pass and i got my PDL... so means that i can start to have my practical lesson le.. so happy... can't wait to start my lesson... hee.

Other den passing my test, got another thing i also very happy.. only the person and i know.. it will be a secret...haha...

Just finished writng down all the test and exam dates on my calander... FELT SO "RELAX" haha.... SO POWERDERFUL lifestyle we have fopr yr 3 student... haha...... think going to drop date le... haha.... think this is the last week whereby can relax a bit... nxt week onwards will be the start of the POWDERFUL week... haha........

Date as follows:

Wk14:

30/08/05 --> Business ICA2

02/09/05 --> MBID test 2

Wk15:

05/09/05 --> SFG Quiz 2
06/09/05 --> Stem cells test 2
08/09/05 --> Cell Com Test 4 & Principal of clinical trial
09/08/05 --> Drug Development Test 2

Wk16:

15/09/05 --> DD Exam
16/09/05 --> SFG Exam

Wk17:

19/09/05 --> Business Exam
21/09/05 --> MBID Exam
22/09/05 --> Proteomics

23/09/05 --> FREEDOM DAY................ END OF YEAR 3 SEM 1.... HAHA

JIA YOU GUYS.... LETS US DO OUR BEST FOR THESE 4 WEEKS>>> AFTER THAT WE CAN FLY LE>>>>>>>>>>haha..........

ALL THE BEST........

2005-08-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

16/08/05

'Dr Chooi will be seeing the class after the lect...' this msg was passed around the class during our stem cells elective. When i saw this, i look at muru and eby and the 3 of us are laughing... cause we know that the '3 muskeetes' will nt be able to escape.. hee... deep in our heart, we know that he would wan to tok to the 3 of us.... this is for a simple reason....... we fail the common test which is abt 25%........ after he came to class, explain all the ans, he say... " U all can go. i would like to see...............(looking at the 3 of us as we are sitting together)........ the 3 of u..." den the whole class including the 3 of us are laughing... haha...

when the class left, we told him the reason of y we never do well... den after abt 15-20 min of tok.......... he go off le... we may be laughing out loud, but deep in our heart, we know that we will work hard for the coming test on week 15 which takes up abt 40% of the entire module... so think we will put in our very best...

After tat, we walk to mrt station... we talk abt a lot of stuff and think this time round the 3 of us will work hard... hee..

Den i went to tampines to meet someone and accompany that someone to go collect her phone... hee... quite happy to be with her... we tok a lot... haha...... very funny............. felt so relax... haha... den send her home after that............. den she is so silly and msg mi "thanks" haha... Just wanan her to know that no need to say thanks or sorry to mi.........hee...c ause......... cause....... cause............. i also dunnoe... haha.........

Got to do some work le... haha... Jia You!!!!!!!

2005-08-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

8/8/05 (Monday)

Today been a very tiring but enjoyable day for mi... morning went to sch see my unit NDP parade.. it is very good... the effort they put in never gone to waste... think their sincerity and hardwork touch the god.. just b4 the start of the parade it had a heavy rain.. we all thought that the rain will nt stop... but my dear cades all pleaded with mi ask mi to tell officer to carry on the parade... at tat time i also cannot do anything.. i tell them to be prepared... i dare nt gif them any promise cause i am nt the biggest in the sch... lolx.... den my officer say we carry on with the wet weather programme and the band was going up to the hall to prepare.. just then, the rain stopped... it was such a miracle... however, the parade square was flooded, so i tat the dunnoe wat thing to sweep the water away so that they will be able to perform properly... hee... over all the parade is fantastic... WELL DONE MY DEAR CADETS............

Den went to sch for presentation practice... den something cock up... hope things will goes smoothly on wednesday... hee..

den went for the NDP celebration by SCL.. it was a fun things as we have our MURU to make fun and lead allt he stupid things.. haha... quite fun...

after that, we accompany our dearest NURIAH home to get her bag cause she wan follow us for DOTA... haha... but when we went to the lan shop, all the comp was fully book so we left with no choice den we went J8 to walk walk cause i was shopping for a gift but still have nt find the right gift... during this time, i realise our class guys are very funny... initially, when i walked into the gift shop, they all stand outside and thus make mi so pai seh that i dun wan go in le... they are like so cute... haha... dun dare go in.... all look so shy... haha... lolx... (dun let them hear it arbo i finished le...haha) den so coincidence...... i saw my long long long school mate.. knew her since pri 3... very long le wor.. she is together with her sis which i also know.. haha... den we chat a while.. hee... so happy... finally we went to eby house... we play games and watch anime .. den we go for our favourite DOTA match... played until 10.30.. lolx........

den reach home 11.15...haha........

think today is really happening and enjoying... felt so happy....... dunnoe when den will have fun like this le... cause all will be busy with presentations le........... hee.........

looking forward to 9/8/05......hee................ nitex guys.........

2005-08-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

Friday 5th august

Finally after 2 weeks of torture... the test ended... dun think i will do well this time round.... the paper all so.......... study de never come out... never study de pian pian come out..... just hope i pass all the module.......

watever it is, all is over le... no point regretting...... hee... but during this whole test and study break week.... i am quite happy...... cause of something... which is going to be a secret... haha... only "U" and i know... :P

After test le.. more and more things to pile up le.. haha... stress... y there is no break... haha....... but think can endure through it... :)

So Tired... think both mentally and physically drain le.. haha... :p

(Looking forward to National DAy) hee.. take care all my friends.........

2005-08-04T19:39:00.000+08:00

Hi guys reading my blogs, this is wat i saw in my friendster bulletin... can consider trying.. haha... (If u really decide on someone, do go ahead with it and let her know... cause u never know that u might stand a chance... GOOD LUCK!!! )

For gals, if the guys can do point 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 12, i think he is really serious abt u and do consider giving him a chance... (Cause sometimes it is hard and shy for the guys to take the initiative... cause... they scare rejection also...)

13 ways to win a gal

1. Hugs from behind.
2. Grab her hand when you guys walk next to eachother.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Dont force her to do anything
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms aslong as possible.
9. Say I love you.....and mean it.
10. Pick her over ur friends.. no matter what. evenif your friends call u pussy whipped
11. comfort her when she cries.
12. love her with all your heart.
13.Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream andsay put me down but really shes loves it).

2005-08-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

Yoz....... my blog has come alive..... haha....... finally i wan to update le.. lol..

Now is week 10 le... lol.... 8 more weeks = 2 months = 56 days = 1344 hrs = 80640min = 4 838 400 seconds... (hope calculate correctly. :P) and we will be finishing our year 3 sem 1 which is out last academic year le.... times flies fast..

thinking of the 1st day we met each other during orientation, we all are like strangers to each other... all those shy shy type one.. dun dare take initiative to tok to each other... den i was the 'lucky' 1 to be choosen as the assistant class rep together we adeline. that time i dun dare to tok to her.. it is only when sch reopen, den we get to know more abt each other... in class also..... a lot of times i shy to make announcement... haha...

think it is fated tat we are all in the same class... think our class got a lot of happening..... among the whole of SCL... think our class got the lousy academic result.. and the most complain.. but who cares......... lolx... i am sure most of u will agree with mi.. cause we really enjoy and make full use of our poly life.. we are all so bonded together... held 2 class chalet le...

initially, the X club 8 (nuriah, siti, hidayah, eby, muru, jun hou, terence and mi) become X club 4 cause jun hou and terence went to the other track and siti hidayah went "join" other club.. still remember that everytime after our meal, all of us will be laughing like crazy... cause of "some" jokes... sometimes laugh until stomach aches... haha... den slowly faizal join us..... den slowly, ben, khai, wei liang join us and now wee keng.. we all become addicted and enjoyed a lot during our DOTA match... think spend quite a lot playing it.. haha... we very funny de.. can skip lesson but when say dota, all will assemble at the lan shop at AMK central.. hahaha...

all this going to be a sweet memory for mi... really hope the whole class can stillb e together after we graduate (but it is quite impossible) so lets us all cherish watever time we have left in our class...

And, i would also like to apologise to those ppl that i show attitude to due to stress or wat.. but all is unintention de... hee... hope wun take to heart..

Lastly, enjoy being with the whole class... hope all of u will gif it ur best shot during the final exam and all presentation... let us make a history in NYP by producing all the top student for this sem module.. so all must jia you... hee...

warmest wishes to all.......................

2005-06-27T10:17:00.000+08:00

暗恋的代价

歌手：草蜢

茶不思饭也不想
有些话想告诉你
心里太多牵挂
整夜心乱如麻

失眠是为了想她
猜测她会爱我吗
无时无刻想她
可是她知道吗
（爱她她知道吗）

为什么每次遇见她
我也不懂说话
想送她一束玫瑰花
但心里又害怕
为什么太阳总笑你
笑你不懂表达
"王子变青蛙"
这就是暗恋她的代价

茶不思饭也不想
有些话想告诉她
心里太多牵挂
整夜心乱如麻

失眠是为了想她
猜测她会爱我吗
无时无刻想她
可是她知道吗

听过太多爱情的故事
总有一点幻想
每一天发呆在家里
守候她的电话
为什么月亮看着你
说你是个傻瓜
"聪明变傻瓜"
这就是暗恋她的代价

2005-06-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

The Guy Who Still Loves U

The guy who loves you, can't tell you the
reason why he love you. he only knew that, in his
eyes, you are the only one

The guy who loves you, actually always make
you mad, but he do never know what stupid thing
did he done, coz everything he had done, he only
meant it for u.

The guy who loves you, seldom praise you,
but in his heart, you are always the best, but he
praise u to his friends.

The guy who loves you, will be anxious if you din't
reply his message, because he cares.

The guy who loves you , will try not to drop his
tears in front of you even if u hurt him, unless the
one being hurt is u.

The guy who loves you , will not be able remember
every word u said, because when he was with u,
he tends to think of things to make u happy. but of
coz unless he got darn good memory.

The guy who loves you, will not give any forever
promises, because they don't want to break these
promise, unless u force him to.

The guy who loves you, will ask for ur opinion and
probably let u make most of the decisions coz u
are part of him, and he hopes that u will be part of
he's family in the future.

The guy who loves you, will try to remember
occassions but we are still human let us be
forgetful at times.

The guy who loves you, won't said " i love you"
that easily, until he gets use to it.

The guy who really loves you, will feel that,
sometimes, somethings have to be told only
once, becoz he was afraid dat it may bring trouble.
coz some gers think too much.

The guy who loves you, will go to airport to
fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call
you darling like what u expect. coz dats too much
TV!

The boy who loves you, will listen quietly to
you, when you are mad, and until you are finished,
he will only giggle and still find u cute.

The boy who loves you, will not dare to call u when
u are angry until he picks up his courage to. but he
will make it asap coz he only tot of when he noes
dat u are angry.

The boy who loves you, always call you sa gua,
but everytime he want to make a big decision,
he will want to listen to your advice.

The guy who loves you, keeps things dat u gives
him dat he dun like.

The guy who loves you, when quarrel, he
will apologize, thou you are the one
in the wrong, and he will learn to forget about it.

The guy who loves you, while really misses
you, he may juz msg u some redundant msgs juz
to see ur replies.

The guy who loves you, seldom say sweet
things, coz he is still human and he has feelings
and emotions towards other things dat happens
around him besides u.

The guy who loves you, will make himself busy
when he cant get to see u.

gers..guys are humans after all..he has his
limits..too much ou xiang ju is not good for both
boys and gers..unless u found a bf whose dad is a
tycoon..so face reality..cherish the guy who love
u..dun expect too much from him..

2005-05-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

14/05/05

Really feel very happy today... WHY?? cause i saw someone... someone whom i will never forget in this life... someone whom i will always remember the sweet memories btw us... she is my ex-stead, due to some reason, we had to broke up...

As times passed by, i thought i had forgotten abt her and it will be hidden in my locked up memory. However, i still did not manage to forget the things between us... but it will always be memories in my mind...

When i received a called from my friend whether i was at NTU, i said yes.. den i ask her whu she was with den she say she is with her. i was at a shocked.. i could not believed my ear... I thought i was dreaming... den when reach boon lay interchange, i really saw her... soon, all the memories came back to my mind... I was at a lost of wat to do... wan to go say hi to her but i do not have the courage so i just walk away and sms her friend... den she say they are going home too... so i say go home together but i scare she mind... but she do not mind and therefore, i wait for them at the mrt station. her friend reached 1st den she came.. she say hi to mi as i was busy smsing my friend... i do not know wat to tok to her... after sometime, i ask her abt her result and we started chatting...

Although we did not chat much and is only for abt 1hr, i am satisfied le... cause.... after so long, i saw her le... contented le...

Now i wish her all the best and good luck to her in watever she do...

God bless u!!!

2005-04-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

单身情歌曲:陈耀川词:易家福

抓不住爱情的我
总是眼睁睁看它溜走
世界上幸福的人到处有为何不能算我一个
为了爱孤军奋斗
早就吃够了爱情的苦
在爱中失落的人到处有而我只是其中一个
爱要越错越勇
爱要肯定执着
每一个单身的人得看透
想爱就别怕伤痛
找一个最爱的深爱的想爱的亲爱的人
来告别单身
一个多情的痴情的绝情的无情的人
来给我伤痕
孤单的人那么多
快乐的没有几个
不要爱过了错过了留下了单身的我
独自唱情歌
在爱中失落的人到处有
而我不是最后一个
伤心的人那么多
我应该勇敢的过
这首真心的痴心的伤心的

2005-03-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

Today morning, when i board 87, saw 1 of my ex. LAst time during wednesday, i will take the same bus as her but always no courage to tok to her... then like end up never see her... Today... dunnoe where i got the courage.... i walk up and sit in front of her and tok to her... quite fun and happy actually... in the sense that u get to be friends back with your ex after breaking.. haha..

Recently addicted to LAN game sia.. Always want to go play. It is quite fun to play with muru, faizal and eby. in the sense that we kill each other whereby muru is the one whu is always being targeted. maybe he is an easy target ba... haha... really enjoy it...

REcently super stress.... stress over common test.. den still have presentation, still have report and other stuff... the most stress is the result which will be release by this week.. haiz.... so worried cause i know how "WELL" i have done...

This semester is really stress up... everyday also tired... tired until no mood to do other things and homework... just feel like relaxing and dun bother about anything... but i know it is impossible for mi...

Been about 2 - 3 weeks since last tok to her... Starting is i busy studying for my test... now is her turn to study for her test and do her project... i also never contact her tat much scare that i disturb her... HAiz.... But i know tat i will always wish her all the best.... hee..

2005-02-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

It has been sometime since i last update my blog... been too busy with stuff....... finally found time to update...

This semester is so busy.. so much things to do........ i think 24hr is not enough for mi.... recently... is sometime happy... soemtimes not so happy.... cause... i gal ma... got monthly problem... so every month will have a moody period ma... haha.

Finally holiday and chinese new year coming... feelings is not rite... cause need to bother abt the tones of schoolwork to do... haha... stress ah.... haha... but at the same time must also relax ma.. haha...

Today went to do project... den went work... everything fine..... haha.. after work go find "S" to pass her stuff... find tat after so long never really contact, still feel like we qutie close like tat......... thinking back, really is se bu de... but......... it is all in the past and is in 2003.......

Sometimes think tat i am a very silly and timid person.. why i dun have the courage... why scare this.... scare tat... take for example... today got 1 customer after comparing decided to buy my pillow... den another idiot promoter tok to my customer and introduce his pillow... i only stand there but did not tok... in the end the customer did not buy both brand pillow... haiz.... why i lose this chance of sales.......... sometimes really hate myself...

I dun have the courage to do a lot of things.. even dun have the courage to tell someone i like her... after i express my feelings, she never reply.. den i tell her to pretend tat i never say anything or i will say i joking only... den when tat person attached, i will retreat and wish them the best.... very silly rite?? dunnoe how to fight for my own happiness....... maybe it is all fated ba........ Now, How i wish i could be with her... so fun to have chat with her.. i always tell myself not to fell too deeply and even tell myself tat i dun like her... funny and stupid rite??? she is such a popular gal.. i feel inferio....... she prefer her friend.... but... i will always remember tat day we go out... it was so nice.... the feeling is so sweet... i dunnoe wat is her feeling towards mi... but wat ever it is... must be strong.. hha............ just hope tat she understand my feeling.. haha

HAo ba... dun wan say le... arbo more secret out le.. haha..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

2004-11-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

25/11/04

Finally waited for so many days and my result finally out... haha... so happy... felt so relieved. GOT a D+, 2 Cs and 2 Bs.. it is not as good as my last semester but i satisfied already cause from the effort i put in, i noe myself.. thank god that i made it this semester... for the next semester onward, i will work extra hard... hee....

Yesterday went out with my 2 god sister (Pretty gals) den went watch movie.. haha... quite fun cause long time never go out with them le... hee... they still dote mi like the past.. haha.... hee... monday they say going to celebrate my birthday... hope i can make it... haha... arbo they going to kill mi..

Thinking my birthday is coming, make mi think back abt last year birthday which had a sweet memory... but is just memories..... once times have past, it will only be memories... haiz..... nevermind... i should look into the future... hee...

thats all ba... feel so happy....hee...........

2004-11-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

8/11/04 Monday

Today went to sch for the NYP pal presentation talk... haha.... quite fun at least learn something new... hee... worth going... haha...

Finally after so long, things has been cleared.... Also let mi noe the truth....... Never blame u... Just my fate... Sometimes rather that we did not meet and u never tell mi that in the beginning... Maybe is god wan to test mi... but i really so scare and no confident at all le... Love is something that hurt the most... HAHA.... like 1 song it sings "Wise man say only fool falls in love" Quite true at times... haha... but... now only 1 song can express my feeling, sings by michael learn to rock

"Baby wun u tell mi why, there is sadness in ur eyes. i dun wanna say goodbye to u... Love is 1 big illusion, i should try to forget. but there is something left in my mind. You're the 1 whu set it up, now u're the 1 to make it stop. i'm the one whu feeling lost rite now. Now u wan mi to forget, every little thing u say, but there is soemthings left in my heart........."

Guess god wan mi to have more experience b4 letting my rite 1 come out... lookiing at my 2 buddies, so envy of them... but is their fate.... i should just wait ba.... Wait and wait and wait...

Result release on the 25th of november... so scare of it... hope i can pass.......... dun dare aim high.....

Thats it.... need some time to recover...

2004-11-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

5/11/04 Friday

Finally after exam... But Y i feel so bored and sian?? Wat is the reason... I dunnoe y........ CAn someone gif mi an answer???????

TOday morning went swimming with my friend den swim for a few hours... find it quite relax... den wanna went back to pri sch but in the end got 1 teacher guarding the door dun let us in to find our pri sch teacher... I find this system a bit wat.. cause if they dun allow ex-student to go back find their teachers is very wat lor... haha... dunnoe use wat to describe.. haha..

After exam should relax but dunnoe y i feel very stress up,............ feelt at got burdens but i dunnoe wat is the burden....... also dunnoe wat to do...... haiz... like suddenly my life lost direction like tat.... haiz...........

Hope as the days pass by... i will be alright... haha......

ENJOY THE HOLIDAY!!!

2004-10-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

29/10/04 Friday

Finally struggle for so many days can take a 1 day break from books. For the past few days, been so stress up with all those notes and memorising. 3 paper has past. I noe jolly well how i fare for this 3 papers. i dare not ask for good result but i hope that i can pass the module.. REally regret the time that i wasted last week.

THis semester i also dunnoe wat is going on in mi. I dun have the motivation and mood to do anything. I feel so sick and tired of everything. Why i also dunnoe. Also dunneo wat is bothering mi. When i wan to get started on my revision, i will feel tired or sian of the book. see the book den wan slp...

Time wait for no man... When u waste the time, it can no longer go back.... From this exam, i have learnt new things... hee.... that is to make use of watever time i have left to do and put in my very ebst effort in the last 2 paper.... No point feeling regret and doing nothing rite??? hee....

Hope that for those of my friends whu also like mi, do not follow my footstep cause at the end of the day, will surely regret... hee...

All the best to everyone and may god bless all of u..............

2004-10-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

Tuesday 27/10/04

Just finish studying Transcription and RNA molecules. Now doing TRanslation. later still have to do replication. haha... like so many things to study... hee... wat to do... who ask mi no motivation to start early.. now, i will make use of watever time i have left to try my best. hopefully i can pass this module... hee...

I am sure a lot of my classmate are studying very hard.. haha... jia yoy..

Pray that we will remember wat we have study... hee............

ALL THE BEST!!!

2004-10-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

23/10/04

Just woke up 2 hours ago... haha.... today whole day at home dunnoe y never study... haha.... just keep on slping... haiz.... wan get motivated and started but like got things hold mi back... haha... so sian.... haiz.... thinking back from abt 2 weks to exam.. now left only 3 days to study... times really flies and wait for no man...

Really have to study smart in order to score well... haha... too bad mi like got short term memory.. haha... think got to try mt best and make use of watever time i have to study le... hee.... think i will put in my best to struggle through this semester............ JIA YOU JOWIN.... hee...

All the best to my classmate too... Hope that u all will have the motivation to study.... hope wat we study and memorise we will remember for the paper.. JIA YOU EVERYONE... GIVE IT UR BEST SHORT... hee...........

2004-10-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

21/10/04 Fine Day

Today went to school for revision... after Miss Shailu say wat to focus on, is till find that a lot of things to study.... think going to die for this paper le... haha.... MBT also quite a lot of things to study... only this 2 modules i have no confident in... haiz....

Days pass by.... bring time nearer to the 1st paper... i still slacking and no mood to study.... haiz.... this time dunnoe can make it a not... hope i can.... if i start now... haha..... i think i will start to revise later... after finish my HACCP things... suddenly like got so many things to do... haha...

In the evening, met my buddies to study togethrer.... but also never study much... cause.... no mood like tat.... wan study den head giddy... haha.... we went to burger king to study... something very embrasse thing happen.. we sit at the cushion chair which is so confortable... 1 of my buddies sit opposite of mi... i wan to disturb him so i throw a tissue paper at him which had some of my drawing... who noes that the paper bounce off his head and drop behind. behind us was 3 gals studying... i was so shy .... keep on laughing... den my friend apologise to them on my behalf... i never expect this to happen... i was so shy that i did not dare apologise to her.. haha.... haiz.... just not my day... hahaha...

Study hard everyone.... Jia you... sTrive for good result....

2004-10-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

19/10/04 Rainy day...

Today, went to school early in the morning to prepare for my presentation... inside the lecture room, it was so cold... freezing and shaking inside.... at 1st, was very scare for the presentation... cause wake up in the morning feel that something is not right for the presentation... den wait patiently for my grp turn... hee..... finally wait until our turn and we gave our presentation... after we finish, miss lim... told us that we did very well... we were all so relieve... like a rock being put down after carrying it for so long... thank god that things went smoothly...

Den i went home... it was raining cats and dogs.... even under shelter, i also got a bit wet... but i still went home... after that, went out wif my friend to study.... in the end, i did not study as i dun have the mood.... i also dunnoe y... haiz.... exam coming, no mood.... HOW??? STRESS???

Den happen to saw someone..... i think is her.... dun have the courage to sms her to confirm.... also dunnoe wat is wrong btw the 2 of us... initially things went off fine... but........... good things will have an ending.... i still remember wat she told mi, " Y u give up so fast?? I have not give up yet..." But thinking back, i dun have the confident to not to gif up... cause.... she has been so cold towards mi... that nite, sent her a forward sms.... she ask mi wat i mean... i say just a forward sms.... den shee reply mi "ok, fine. Nite" i suddenly felt so hurt. maybe is my fault as i never tell her wat i really mean... But, that nite, i really wish to tell her that i have been thinking of her all days. But i dun have the courage. She is the one whu say she like mi... den suddenly...... Everything is so sudden..... i dun even noe wat is wrong.... Maybe it is because of mi... my fault........... think is my mistake ba.... maybe also my fate.... nevertheless, i still hold on to the wish.... hope that we will return to wat it is when we 1st sms...

2004-10-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

A true story that happened in Japan.

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tore open the wall. Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls. When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside was hammered into one of its feet. He saw this, felt pity, and at the same time he was curious. When he checked the nail, turns out, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.
What happened?
The lizard had survived in such a position for 10 years! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind boggling. Then he wondered how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step - since its foot was nailed!
So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what it had been doing, and what and how it has been eating. Later, not knowing from where it came, appeared another lizard, with food in its mouth.
Ahh! He was stunned and at the same time, touched deeply. Another lizard had been feeding the stuck one for the past 10 years...
Such love, such a beautiful love! Such love happened with this tiny creature...
What can love do?
It can do wonders!
Love can do miracles!
Just think about it; one lizard had been feeding the other one untiringly for 10 long years, without giving up hope on its partner.
If a small creature like a lizard can love like this... just imagine how we can love if we try.

2004-09-24T02:51:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... just finish my MBT report... No mood to do... can consider as an anyhow do report... haiz... dunno leh.... i think i noe the answer but just no mood to do it... in the end, i ended up anyhow do...haha.... dunneo wat gots into mi..

recently like no mood to do work.. find that thigns are very messy for mi... i also dunnoe y.... haiz.... haha.... think my life is really screw up but i also dunnoe wat i am doing and thinking recently...... hope i can wake up early ba... haha

Just now went jogigng wif jin sheng... hee... jog for 2 rounds round punggol park.... haha... dun have much stamina... haha.... too fat le... haha

anyway... hope that my life will not be in sucha mess again.. haha...

sometimes thinking that mi and the gal, A, is really no fate... 1st is she came to my sec sch... stand behind mi yet i never notice her... is like just behind mi.... den is today in the same bus yet i also never saw her... haiz....... things are so...... haha... got to stop le ba... hee.....

FaTe.... HaHa......

2004-09-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

Just finish palying my online game.. haha... nothing to do so come and update my blog... if not my blog officer will say mi again... haha... :P

REcently things getting on fine... haha... everyday sleep and play games and eat.. never really study much... haha... think of yesterday the poor mice... haha... so pitiful... haha...

Today was a nice day... it rain so i manage to have a good afternoon nap.. haha...

exam coming in a abt 1 months time... sian.. so fast.... so many things to study... haha.... sian ah.... haha....

Think i recently become more cheerful le.. maybe in better mood le... haha... today go library book the badminition court but end up jamming the comp cause i enter wrong password... den eby, Js and i went back to canteen to eat... ignoring the computer... haha... sian... hee..

think tat is all to update ba... haha... hee... go watch TV le... hee..

2004-08-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

4 days have past since holiday... been slacking all days... dun have the motivation to study... also dunnoe how... Any idea of motivation??? hee.. :p

Alwaus wan tos tudy den look at hte notes den sian 1/2.. hee... haiz...

Believe that my friends are all busy studying ba...haha... how can i be like them... so many temptation... haha/..... haiz....

Time fleis fast... so fast half a semester gone le... been thinking of wat i have been doing for this past semester and wat i wan my future to be... Why must we grow up./... never grow upd en good ma.... not so many responsibilities... hee...

Yesterday my bro slept wif mi... haha... he so cute.... hee... so chubby... haha... now he online playing games... haha... sucha young boy... haha.... house got 1 bro also very good.. haha....

2004-08-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

Yoz yoz yoz...

wating long to se my update rite?? haha... recently busy with my NPCC things about the school NDP parade things do until very stress up... that is why sometimes in school tend to keep quiet.. haha.... but now everything over le... but.... is going to be test le... haiz.. so scare... 8 weeks of lesson things have to be tested.. haha.. nevertheless, i will still study hard.. cause i wan to score well in this semester... haha....

abt 1 week left to 1st paper... study hard and all the best to MB0301... DUn give up even things are very difficult... just put in ur best in study can le.... haha...

Tomorrow going to swimming... wan to get tan... haha... all the best guys... got to stop now le... cause dunnoe wat to say le... haa......

2004-06-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Very very long never update my blog le... too lazy to update also... haha...

Recently been working and dealing with my NPCC activities... So tired of everything. Working ym boss put mi in charge but i very stress as i fear i cannot hit his target even though he never set for mi... haiz... dunnoe y my sales is so bad.... very stress. wish to do well but... those customer are really really very very wat.... can describe the whole universe to them but they still dun wan buy... dunnoe wat nowadays customer think abt.. haha.... so troublesome and hard to please... sometimes really fare up wif them but haf to control; my temper as there is a saying:"customers are always rite"... rubbish... haha...

Dunnoe why recently so sian and tired of everything... dunnoe wat to do also... jsut feel so sick of everything.... haiz.... life is not easy... I got so much things to do but i dun haf the time.... Y???? Y do i haf so much responsibilities???? I can take all these responsibilites but i scare i cannto do a good job in all these area of responsibilities that i hold.... haiz............ sometimes so fan........ wan find free time to go out also dun haf.... all is being occupied by my work and NPCC... Haiz....

So much things....... haiz........ Dunnoe whu to grumble to....... really need a break from everything but do i haf the time????????? DO i haf the time to do all the things i like??? DO i haf the time to enjoy myself??? SO stressed out.... Dun even noe which is the real mi........... haha........ feel like always been putting on a mask.............. dunnoe wat is going on within mi... haha.... going crazy le... haha...

say until i very patethic rite... hha... but working still got money.. haha... so is good.... hee.... hahga...... that all the update.... God bless all my friends happy and cheerful throughout...

2004-05-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

Yoz... Finally got time to update my blog le.. haha...

rEcently been working... tired... haha.... Working got advantages and disadvantages.... hee... cause working got money earn.. haha.. den can spend on things le... haha... hee

Tat time wednesday meet nuriah, adeline, jun hou for all NE project... haha.. when i saw nuriah, she was wearing a skirt den i keep on disturbing her... haha... make her shy.. haha... yesterday online i disturb her again.. haha... hee.. she very nice to disturb... haha...

Dun say i never update hor... is long long time update once... den more interesting things to read... haha....

This cuming thursday off day but haf to do the project... haha... will be very tiring cause is a whole day project... haha...

Just finish class chalet find it very fun and nice ... in the sense that noe more abt each others... haha... really enjoy the chalet... hee....

Dunnoe wat to type le... haha... think thats all... haha... will try to update regularly.... hee...

Waw... Nuriah wearing skirt... haha... :P:P:P:P

2004-04-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

Yoz my fellow friends.... i super long time never update my blog already cause recently is very busy den dun wan come online... hee... :p i very lazy one.... haha....

Times flies fast.. thinking back, the semester just started... Now, is the last week of the semester already.... 3 more days, will be end of semester... what does this means, it nearer to our semester exam.... looking at my notes for all the modules, they are so thick... been wondering how to finish study.... really scare of this semester work cause it seems like a lot of things to study and is very difficult.... Sometimes wan to start early, but no motivation... den wun study.... waste time again... haiz.... wonder where has all my motivations gone to...

Last week, i learnt some cultural things from Faizal and Nuriah... gues wat is it.??? i normally disturb Nuriah by hitting her head wif things that time faizal told mi that it is very disrepectful to them... den i change but today accenditally hit nuriah head again.. haha.... cause she is very small size ma..... easy to disturb... haha..... :p

Today also finish my IT last test.... a bit worry cannot do well cause those questions she asked on the 1st half of the semester, i not very sure den any how choose the answer.... so scare i cannot do well.. cause hope to get an A for my IT.... hope will get it... but wat to do, the paper over already... i haf to concentrate on the other module already....

REcently feel like buying 1 hp but dunnoe wat to buy... been deciding for a long long time... haha....

i think that my updates for today... dunnoe wat to think of already... haha.. take lots of care my friends.... study hard...

2004-04-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today went tos chool as usual but my father drive mi there.... den went for BIostat. lecture.... ALl the guys in X club 8 never go except for mi which makes mi the only guy... den after lecture, follow nuriah, siti, hidayah and adeline to food junction for breakfast.... den went for Organic chem tutorial...

Dr Xu was a bit fierce today cause some ppl never do the tutorial.... but sometime, dun really understand the tutorial especially on synthesis of compound... i think is that i never put in effort to study on my own... haiz.... poly is so stressful and is independent... dun really like the teaching style... haha.... but wat to do, haf to adapt to changes and be flexible...

After that, went to J8.... there, we play games... maybe today i not feeling well so die very fast.... but is sort of relaxing....

Nuriah today is tired cause of her yesterday soccer match.... den i keep on disturbing her saying she attitude.... haha... den she say... "JOwin ah, u and ur attitude thing...." haha.... Hope she will be in better mood tomorrow cause recently she seems moody.... Hope she will cheer up... hee...

CAuse wan everyone to be happy.... Here, must say a very big thank you to adeline... she solve my problem... cause i cannot find anywhere to save my IT assignment den she say she help mi burn... thanks a lot adeline... if not for u, maybe now i wun be typing this blog but will be searching for place to save the project... haha.... thanks.......

I think thats all to report for today...

Some reminder for MB0301:
21/04/04
2-4pm Biostat. make up lecture
12-1pm Biostat. make up tutorial

****14/4/04
Micro B quiz
Note: THe time has changed to 3-4pm at Q605

2004-04-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

Yoz yoz yoz....

Today reach school quite early so sit at the benches outside the guys toilet at level 7... After sitting a while, saw nuriah.... den borrow her book do some 'references' haha..... like tat say is nicer... hee... den she today ah quite attitude.... hahaha... den i keep on disturbing her say nuriah attitude ah.... cause today no headache den a bit palyful so keep on disturbing nuriah... hope she not piss off by mi....

DEn lesson went on fine cause is micro B lecture.... den is taught by lionel so is quite fun.... haha... he say tat he like terence....haha.... it is the greatest joke... and the whole class broke into laughter.... Dr lionel is a very knowledge person.... one can learn and know a lot of things from him.... he is also a very nice person.... :p

DEn went to library after meal to our "club room" to revise for the biochem practical test... all went on smoothly... den ask nuriah some question and she taught mi patiently and explain patiently to mi... She is a very nice person.... :p

During IT lecture, the talk was so boring that i fell asleep... noe it is a bit of disrespecting to the talker in front but cannot help it cause the room is so cold and there is not much light... so u noe.... haha..... Den when the lecture ended, somthing happen which shock all of us.... we all did not expect it to happen.... guess wat??? Siti kiss jun hou on the cheek... we were all so shock..... never expect her to do that.... DEn keep on making fun of them....

After tat went to the lab to do the test.... initially, i was still feeling ok... but when i saw the paper, my mind went blank and i had a terribel headache and i could not really focus... but, i still force myself to focus cause i noe this 20% means a lot to mi and i really need this 20% in order to do well... Finally struggle for 1 hour and went off.... Feeling very blur in my mind cause of the headache... Seems to feel so stress when looking at the paper... Now thinking, open book i so stress and deel so uneasy already wats to say abt close book for the other module.... haiz.... SCare.... very very scare....

More or less i haf almost complete my IT assignment.... very scare that i did not do properly.... very very scare..... cause i wan to score well for my IT....

Dun wan tok so much le... hope thsoe ppl whu fall sick will recover quickly.... During this few weeks, cannot fall sick.... jia you on the immune system..... take lots of care my friends and drink more water.... eat less heaty stuff cause the virus seems to be spreading fast.....

Remember: " An appl a day keep the doctor away!!!!" :P

2004-04-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

Yoz my friends...

Finally i have time to update my blog already..... I think has been a super super long time since i last update ba.... recently very busy wif a lot of stuff so no time to cum online....

Finally fall sick already.... think fall sick at the wrong time.... Why i like that say??? cause this week and next week will be a very very very busy week.... got test.... assignment and etc... i got a lot of things not yet complete so i told myself i cannot fall sick but.... u all noe... viruses wun listen to mi... as if i say dun replicate now.... after my exam den replicate.... it wun rite..... haha.....

Been very stress up also..... think my looks and appearance looks bad ba.... Ppl will say i attitude.... but sometimes try very hard to smile but can hardly smile ba.... maybe my heart is fill wif burden..... lots and lots of things undone..... so always worried for this and that....

During my O level, thought that if i do well, can cum to poly and get into the course i wanted.... but when i get into this course, i find that it was so stress and got so much things to do..... it is like everyday after school will be study and do work..... cause everyday also got lecture..... den 1 week got 4 practical and out of 4 practical, 3 need to do report.... fortunately, all the lab session over le.... thought after the lab session over can haf an ease of mind but i was wrong... cause after the lab session over, practical test will be coming... so can forget abt taking a break.... den thought after all the practical test and quiz over thought can take a break...b tu again, i was wrong cause the semester exam coming..... haiz.... u see everything is so pack.... where got time to revise.....

Maybe i haf a poor time management ba...... from the week 10 test, i notice that i was a failure.... Why??? cause ah... fromt he result i got, i was quite disappointed... den i compare to other ppl.... some of them only study a while but can score better den mi... find that i was very 'weak'.... den really wish to score well for my this semester but think of the time i had on revising is so little.... felt so scare of this semester.... really wan to break down ..... but cannot haf to stay strong......

Y i say no time for revising???? cause ah everytime i reach home, i will be so tired and wan to slp... but think got work to do so cannot slp.... furthermore, my sechdule was so fully pack..... realy dunnoe wat to do.... really admire my group of friends.... they still can go out and exercise and still can do so well.... i really need to learn a lot from them.... everytime plan to go home study, but was so tired and ended up slping or watching tv to relieve a bit.....

HAiz..... Seems like my life is forever full of problem rite.... maybe through blog, i was able to say out my real feelings and thinkings and hopefully will become happier and in better mood..... Hope tat my next blog will be something happy.... haha.....

All the best to everyone arouind mi.... maybe go and study.... amybe only... haha.... so tired... Zzzzzz.....

2004-03-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

Now reading tomorrow organic chem practical read until very bored so decided to update my blog or else my friends wiill say " Jowin, Y never update ur blog?' haha.... Kidding my friends... joking... haha...

Yesterday nite, went to eat buffet steamboat wif my 3 other childhood friends... we really is child hood in the sense that we from very very small play until now... altogether, there are 5 of us including mi... all of us are guys.... Last time when we are small, we are super angry... After the 5 of us meet, when i get home, i will get caned by my fater cause is too palyful and naughty until my father cannot stand mi den always end up getting beaten... but when young get beaten is like nothing cause my tat time where got so many welfare.... hee.... beat beat beat also grow up le... more mature le.... Haf notice how each and every of us grown up... now, my other 3 friends who eat steamboat wif mi yesterday all is attached le... lafet mi and the other guy... so envious of them... their stead are so loving to them.. jealous...haha... den i keep on disturning them when will i get to eat ur wedding dinner... den my neighbour say "Didn't we say wan to gert married together? this is wat we say when we are very young.... hee.... den we all agreed and say tat it will be very grand and will save quite a bit cause the overall cost is divided between 5 families... haha..... but.... it will nbe long if all of us wan get married together cause must wait for evceryone to be attached ma.... haha... thinking back, quite silly when we are young also... haha...

Den we eat the steamboat until like no image le... eat quite a lot until super super full... eat for 1 and a half hour... i sure put on a lot of weight... haha.... sad sad... i must go on diet le if not no body wan mi le... too fat le ma.... hee.... while eating, i really enjoy it.... in the sense that we joke a lot and do a lot of stupid things.... den i super action cause i over stress le.... we took too much food until cannot finish den i told them to paly "zhong ji mi ma" so that we will be force to eat and not waste food buit in the end, still waste a little bit... now talking abt the steamboat, feel hungry le... haha....den really enjoy a lot...

Today mood also quite good cause yesterday i made a decision tat is i finally decided to fan xia "her" le.... after 7 months i fianlly made the decision.... hope i will be happier after i made this decision.. but at times, still se bu de her... but wat to do... mi and her is ony got fate but cannot be together..... No point holding on as it wun come to any good ending... But mi and her still quite good friend ba.... hope i will really fang xia.... hee..... Must haf determination......

I think cause of a lot of other factors tat made mi decided to fang xia also.... hee.... Hope i will be happier as the days goes by..... Hee.... Will continue to update my blog often as i think i will be less busy this few weeks... hee.....

2004-03-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

Harlo my friends.... waiting very long to see my blog rite??? always ask mi "Jowin, why never update ur blog?" Finally i got time and mood to update my blog already.... it might be a very long 1..... haha....

Recently, i think i was busy wif a lot of things like NPCC, den sch work den my religion things also........ Dun even haf time to take a break.... always immerse wif so much things... maybe going to break down soon le...... Everyday after sch, dunnoe y will feel so tired, so shack out... maybe too fat le never exercise den stamina weak ba... dunnoe ba.......

Reacently my temper very bad..... very hot-tempered... so my friend if i got show attitude problem, hope u all will forgive.... Dunnoe y suddenly so hot-tempered....... it is like i will get very angry over very very very small things.... is like i wun be like tat.... yesterday my father ask mi wat happen but i told hm nthing den kept quiet cause i also dunnoe the reason for my behaviour now...... DEn dun dare tok to him later he wil ask ask ask...... haiz.... i dunnoe wat got into mi these few days.......... very frustrated.......

Today after IT practical rush to see my result.... who noes whne i saw it, i was so disappointed wif it.......i mean i really got put the effort to study but in the end it turn out to be worse....... i feel tat it was worse den my last semester test........ i was so so so disappointed tat i wanted to cry but u all noe tat guys cannot cry so i bare wif it.. den after seeingt he result, went back to sec sch for NPCC meeting on training programme.... haiz... sometimes very difficult to work things out especially when got a lot of ppl den wan to discuss.... must coordinate until everyone free .... den when everyone free. den suddenly told mi tat going out....got something on.... but luckily the programme was settled..... but i haf not typed out........... after the meeting, i went home den i play games until now... wanted to forget abt everything but seems tat i can't..... the responsibility was there........ a lot of pressure........

Today morning went to sec sch, saw 1 of my ex whu i love deeply in the past...... wanted to greet and called out to her but........ i did not....... when i see her, i was feel wif regrets....... i dun dare face her........... i....i...... she still look the same......

Sotiems i really wish to take a long long long long break whereby i wun haf anythings to worried abt and think of but...... i can't....... Whu noes wat i am feeling now.... whu noes how stress i am now... whu noes tat i was so troubled now....... whu noes if i never say out.... i really hate myself for hafing such a poor time management...... I hate and angry wif myself abt my test..... haiz.... abt eveything......

I really very tired.... My feelings for 'her' haf not fade.... why........ i dun understand...... Y sometimes good guys will always be failure in relationship but those bad guy so successful in raeltionship... sometimes dun understand..... ppl say let nature take it course and be patient........ i bear in mind and waited....... but in the end..... is like.......... dun wish to say le........

Schwork now is also very pressure...... I like this course why i cannot make the effort to study...... Why ppl study last min can do weel but i..... haiz....... i really at a lost now.... lost in a lot a lot of things.... how i wish i can shut myself up from everything....... but is it possible.... why some of my friends can score well..... feel very pressure..... even though they never stress mi but..... i somehow feel so pressure......

Sometime thinking whether did i make the rite choice to study in this course...... noeing that i might not catch up...... my freinds are all very understanding ppl.... but.......

Maybe i should really fine 1 day to gif myself a break ba... but when will this day arrive for mi.... haha...... gods noe wat is best for mi...... must haf faith in god......... but i no faith in myself.....

Now also confused over relationship things... how i wish i can be emotionless so tat i wun fall in love and get another trouble for mi.....

2004-03-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

today, 5/3/04

Wake up early in te morning go to my sec sch to go wif my cadets for cross country duty. go there help out my officers. During the duty, i saw my ex... she sms mi but i never bring my hp wif mi. after the duty den i reply her. den after i reply her, we chat quite a lot. she say she wanted to say'hi' to mi but shy. i also wanted to greet her but shy also.... den we chat a while ask abbt each other life. den i was surprise byt he way she ask mi... it seems she very updated abt mi... haha.... she noe i next week got test and i like who... haha... shock and surprised.... den i ask her how she noe, she say secret ask mi to guess... haha....... den i cannot guess it den dun guess le.... got 1 part of the sms we tok abt last time we together..... she say i distrust her.... actually that time, there was misunderstanding and i dare not voice or solve it... in the end, we broke up....... den just now we say abt...... den we say tat maybe i was mature at that time ba..... actualyl she was quite nice ba..... but all is in the past le.... :0)

ACtually, it has been abt 1 month +++ le... Honestly, my feelings is a mixed. i not sure of who i haf feelings for now.... i still care and zai hu "her"(the gal i chase last her) everytime i see her, i tok to her den we crap here crap there...... maybe i still fang bu xia or can say i stubborn ba..... but........ dunnoe ba........ hee.....

Recently holiday, slept a lot... haiz.... like pig like tat.... slp more than study... felt stress.... even though is mcq, i was still scare..... i scare never do well but given the effort i put in....haiz........ say le jiu angry wif myself..... keep on dragging and dragging.... haiz....

SChool reopen = test ..... wonder how will things be like....so stress up and busy recently........... hope everything will goes on smoothly ba........... maybe this is the latest update of mi ba...... haha.....

2004-03-02T02:11:00.000+08:00

Just got back from my NPCC Area 7 ATC camp... It is a 3 days 2 nite camp.... during this camp, i was a group instructor. Taking a bunch of sec 2 cadets is quite fun but need to put in a lot of effort as they are just sec 2 and tends to be more playful and did not lsiten to instruction.... sometimes also angry wif them.... notice that they should be told the reasons of why they cannot do this and that den they will listen more.... THey are quite cute actually.... For the camp, most of my batchmate (same batch as mi in CI course) is their last camp... REally very sad... been wif them for so many camp and the bonding is so strong now they are leaving le... can't bear it... TIme flies so fast.... the thought of them leaving, can cry..... Wat is the moral.... "cherish wat ever time u haf wif the people around u because u dun noe when they will be leaving u......"

I slept from yesterday afternoon 4+++ to today morning 9.... haha.... replenish all my energy...... later haf to study for test........ Next week test...... cannot play so much .........

2004-02-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

hi! i just got tested for my IT assignment!!

2004-02-25T13:42:00.000+08:00

TOday,

Morning wake up super tired and went to school feeling a bit giddy... everything went on fine.... during lucnch chat wif eby, muru(My darling), and faizal.... We all chat a lot of things.... :) everything went on fine until i receive an sms by someone whu attitude really sux.... piss off by his sms.... den i cool myself down den dun think abt it.... at nite, email him but forgot to add attachment den he reply in a very attitude manner.... damn piss off by him.... dunnoe wat is the problem wif him...always cannot phrase his sentence properly..... wat is the moral:"Respect other if u wan pther to respect u..."

Today do the biochem practical, super fun... chat here chat there but feel sian due to all the waiting.... but... still can take it ba.... Dr huang is a nice person... :p

Today just cut my hair... hope wun look like "Ah gong"

Tats my day.... just piss by someone..... :p

2004-02-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

hi
this is my first time using blogger....
i am a blog virgin....
It will be mostly about my life.... some happiness and sadness....

Hope u all will enjoy reading it.... :p