today, 5/3/04

Wake up early in te morning go to my sec sch to go wif my cadets for cross country duty. go there help out my officers. During the duty, i saw my ex... she sms mi but i never bring my hp wif mi. after the duty den i reply her. den after i reply her, we chat quite a lot. she say she wanted to say'hi' to mi but shy. i also wanted to greet her but shy also.... den we chat a while ask abbt each other life. den i was surprise byt he way she ask mi... it seems she very updated abt mi... haha.... she noe i next week got test and i like who... haha... shock and surprised.... den i ask her how she noe, she say secret ask mi to guess... haha....... den i cannot guess it den dun guess le.... got 1 part of the sms we tok abt last time we together..... she say i distrust her.... actually that time, there was misunderstanding and i dare not voice or solve it... in the end, we broke up....... den just now we say abt...... den we say tat maybe i was mature at that time ba..... actualyl she was quite nice ba..... but all is in the past le.... :0)

ACtually, it has been abt 1 month +++ le... Honestly, my feelings is a mixed. i not sure of who i haf feelings for now.... i still care and zai hu "her"(the gal i chase last her) everytime i see her, i tok to her den we crap here crap there...... maybe i still fang bu xia or can say i stubborn ba..... but........ dunnoe ba........ hee.....

Recently holiday, slept a lot... haiz.... like pig like tat.... slp more than study... felt stress.... even though is mcq, i was still scare..... i scare never do well but given the effort i put in....haiz........ say le jiu angry wif myself..... keep on dragging and dragging.... haiz....


SChool reopen = test ..... wonder how will things be like....so stress up and busy recently........... hope everything will goes on smoothly ba........... maybe this is the latest update of mi ba...... haha.....