A peek into Jowin's complicated cum easy life....

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

It has been 6 months since i last updated my blog. Didn't even notice that it was so long ago. The last entry was on the 20th may, which was the day i signed my contract with ****.

Times really flies. Without realising, i have been working in the lab for 5 months le. During this 5 months, i really learnt a lot of things. My mentor, is especially nice. Still remember the 1st month when i was here. I had totally forgetten about all the techniques that i had learnt. My mentor, showed me once, den i did once for her to see. She find it ok, den she let me carry on with the rest of it. I really appreciated it. My calculations cannot make it. She explained step by step to me until now i know how to calculate le. Without her, i dun think i can recall everything so fast.

However, all good things will have to come to an end. My big boss is retiring in jan 2009. The lab have to be closed and every one will have to go seperate ways. People have asked me why i joined the lab knowing that it will be closing. All i can say is that i never regretted being here. The people here are so nice. They helped and guided me. We can also chat non-work related stuff. Given a choice, i will not want to leave this lab. But, no choice... Just hope that the next place i go to will be the same or better but not get worse (Cross-finger)... haha...

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my lab mates the very best in their future. Hope they can succeed and get into a good lab... :)

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Today, i went to sign my contract for my job and went for a full body check up. I was shock when i saw my weight... i have gain about 7 kg of weight... I am so angry and upset with myself...

I hated myself for being lazy to exercise but like to eat and eat...

I hated myself for having headache easily.....

I hated myself for being fat....

I hated myself for not having motivation to exercise....

I dun wan to return to last time my size... is so damn ugly...

I wan slim down to at least after my BMT size..

In summary, i can only blame myself for the size i am...

So, i decided to exercise every alt day... i hope i have the motivation to slim down...


Monday, May 19, 2008


There are things i hope that i can change and improve on myself:

1. My attitude

2. The degree of sensitivity

3. My temper

4. My willingness to accept comments

5. My listening comprehension

And many many more..

I really hope i can change all these...

Sunday, April 27, 2008


Tomorrow morning, i will be going for my first official interview le... i felt so nervous. haha... wondering how it will be like. just hope that everything will go smoothly and that i will be able to get the job. hee...

Saturday, April 26, 2008


After 7 weeks of lesson, today is my exam. I used about 1 hour to complete my 2 hour paper. with 10 marks not sure how to do. den i slowly figure it out and more or less able to solve the question. Just hope that i will be able to score for this module.

This is the 1st module that i took up. For the past 7 weeks, it has been quite hectic for me as i have to juggle between my study and my work load in army. At times felt really tired, but i do have a great sense of satisfaction as i am able to handle it.

The paper over le, but i do not feel happy at all. I felt lost. Maybe cause i am very busy all the while suddenly everything just ended den dunnoe wat to do. Think i must appreciate this cause if i realyl start work after my ord, i dun think i will have the privellge of taking 89 days off to study for exam.. So must appreciate and be grateful that i am able to do it...

Now just hope that my result will be good... hee..

By the way, i will be going for an interview this coming monday. i felt so excited. really hope i am able to get the job.. but, due to still in ns, i dun dare to have too high wishes. just hope that he will hired mi in june... so i got the income for my studies... hee..

THats all for my update...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Came across this song by olivia ong and we like it a lot....

The lyrics:


You ask me if I love you
and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all it's strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
and I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Monday, February 11, 2008

Some update!!!


Tomorrow i going back to camp le... so sian... my 10 days of staying at home going to be over soon le. in about another 8 hours time, i will be back in my camp le... feel that time flies fast... but, the date like very slow leh.. haha... Away from camp for 10 days is super shiok... really relax and enjoy civillian life.. haha..

But come to think of it, ORD = Going to a new phase of life whereby we will start everything from fresh again. As in to find job, make new friends, creating a good working relationship with colleague and boss, and many many things... but, all this is part of growing up... haha...

Realyl looking forward to civillian life, but think will miss my army close friends. We suffer, have fun, play basketball and many many more... All these will be the things i will be taking away with me after ORD. hee... 15 more weeks le... haha... yeah... CAN START ENROLLING INTO CCC (CIVILIAN CONVERSION COURSE) le. HAHA

On saturday, 090208, i just completed my CV... haha.. Sending it out next week ba... must look for job le.. if not no money to support myself and gif my family le... hee.. must plan le wor... haha...

Came across 2 MV songs from youtube. is super funny.. they change the lyric. haha...

Go and see the link if u have time.. hee.



thats all for my update... take lots of care... hee...

15weeks to ORD le.....