19/10/04 Rainy day...

Today, went to school early in the morning to prepare for my presentation... inside the lecture room, it was so cold... freezing and shaking inside.... at 1st, was very scare for the presentation... cause wake up in the morning feel that something is not right for the presentation... den wait patiently for my grp turn... hee..... finally wait until our turn and we gave our presentation... after we finish, miss lim... told us that we did very well... we were all so relieve... like a rock being put down after carrying it for so long... thank god that things went smoothly...

Den i went home... it was raining cats and dogs.... even under shelter, i also got a bit wet... but i still went home... after that, went out wif my friend to study.... in the end, i did not study as i dun have the mood.... i also dunnoe y... haiz.... exam coming, no mood.... HOW??? STRESS???

Den happen to saw someone..... i think is her.... dun have the courage to sms her to confirm.... also dunnoe wat is wrong btw the 2 of us... initially things went off fine... but........... good things will have an ending.... i still remember wat she told mi, " Y u give up so fast?? I have not give up yet..." But thinking back, i dun have the confident to not to gif up... cause.... she has been so cold towards mi... that nite, sent her a forward sms.... she ask mi wat i mean... i say just a forward sms.... den shee reply mi "ok, fine. Nite" i suddenly felt so hurt. maybe is my fault as i never tell her wat i really mean... But, that nite, i really wish to tell her that i have been thinking of her all days. But i dun have the courage. She is the one whu say she like mi... den suddenly...... Everything is so sudden..... i dun even noe wat is wrong.... Maybe it is because of mi... my fault........... think is my mistake ba.... maybe also my fate.... nevertheless, i still hold on to the wish.... hope that we will return to wat it is when we 1st sms...